Good Afternoon Everyone,
The other day my youngest son Ben brought over my grandson to spend the day. Paxton, my grandson was getting tired and at 8 1/2 months wouldn't just close his eyes and go to sleep. So Ben does what any good dad would do. He put his son on his chest and walked around gently bouncing him. Paxton who is fighting this procedure was trying his best to stay awake by making noises that sounded like he was singing. It was beautiful. I told Ben that I was unable to get Paxton to sleep that way. He told me neither could anyone else. Then he said, "I love it". He loves being the only person that can put his son to sleep that way. I have never been so proud to be Ben's mother.
Then last night I have my daughter Mary and my other son Isaac over. It amazes me how they are growing up. Mary is pregnant with my granddaughter Emma and we are all anticipating her arrival mid September. I am so incredibly blessed to have my children close by. I get to babysit Paxton regularly and while it is difficult and I usually pay for it physically. He is worth it every step of the way. I guess I'm just feeling especially blessed today. And proud of what I have accomplished. I wasn't the best parent at all. My kids have done well despite the mistakes I made. They continue to grow every time I see them.
I saw this little thing on facebook about being careful what we tell ourselves because our brains will believe what we tell it and respond accordingly. That is so true. We are like computers, we can only give according to whats been given. If we feed ourselves with nothing but negative self talk, then we are only going to be able to accomplish what we believe about ourselves. Does that make sense? My sister and I were discussing this the other day and I wondered aloud what my true purpose was supposed to be before I went and screwed everything up. She reminded me that my choices were known long before I made them. I know this to be true. But, don't you ever look back and wish that The Lord would have intervened and told you that this choice would mess up the future that was planned for you? I know I wish I would have listened to that still quiet voice. He (The Lord) was there talking to me, I just didn't listen. I'm listening now! Unfortunately the past can't be fixed, but my future can be. My God is much bigger than my choices. He can take the stupid mistakes I made into beautiful works of art. I see this to be true in the lives of my children.
Today I leave you with one of my favorite verses in Phillipians 4:6-7 "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your request be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, shall guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Until next time, Be Wise, Be Kind, Be True.....Love, Patty
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