Nice game, nice life

Good Morning Everyone,

I know, I'm still being difficult. It's just with another grandchild, my little miss Emma, I'm juggling more than one. You know, I never thought that I had this much love in me. It feels like this is life. Am I okay with how it's coming along? I don't really have the answer to that question yet. Right now, I actually have a court date for my disability through SSI. It's been a couple of years, but have spent this entire year without funds of my own. It's amazing how the extras get taken care of.

There is a question that I think everyone needs to answer, "Am I okay with how my life is coming along?". What would I change? I really hadn't asked myself that question. The obvious answers are getting income again, obtaining a reliable vehicle and pretty much revolving my life around the lives of my 3 kids and their 2 kids with a third one on the way. Her due date is my birthday. They're hoping for a girl but Paxton will be a great big brother anyway you look at it.

But wait, there's still things I wanted to do. I wanted to learn to paint a landscape with oils. I want to try my hand at photography. I think I take GREAT pics. I'll put some up here soon. I'd love to try sculpture or join a reading group with the classics. I've thought about so many things that I thought I'd have an opportunity to still try. I'd love to go abroad and see some of Europe. Truthfully, I'd love to see more than Europe. But I also fight anything outside of the routine. What's a woman to do?

It is strange. Yesterday, my ex-husband came back into town to see the kids and his dad I assume and he got to meet his new granddaughter. Seeing the picture of him takes me back to the music I liked when we were in high school and were dating. He was my best friend for so long. I really miss him. I'm not saying that I don't want his marriage to work. I'm just saying I miss my friend. My kids father. I wish we could have gone through these changes together (in the same room, not necessarily together).

This weekend really brought back a lot of feelings about family and the past and how it's all connected somehow and weaves a beautiful tapestry that is the makings of my life. I guess I just wanted to say, I've missed everyone.....even the ones I haven't actually met.

Until next time, I'll leave you with one of my favorite verses in Romans 12: 1-2 "I urge you therefore brethren, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies a living and holy sacrifice, acceptable to God, which is your spiritual service of worship. And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect."

Until we meet again, Be Wise, Be Kind, Be True........and I hope you like the pictures I included after this. Love, Patty