I'm worth fighting for.

Hello everyone,

Being new to this, it's kind of difficult to decide just what my blog is going to be focused on.  Today I thought I'd talk about finding something worth fighting for.  This is something I struggle with on a regular basis.  I get so caught up in other people's troubles that I find myself hiding from life and the phone and anything else that requires my attention.  I just don't have a fight in me.  That has not always been the case.  I can remember when I was a teenager thinking that I should be a lawyer when I grow up because I really knew how to argue and boy could I pose an argument.  I usually won, I knew I was good at it.  It's funny now how none of that came to pass, mostly because I lost the will to fight.....for me.

There is a large amount of people out there who don't think they're worth fighting for, worth taking care of or worth putting forth an effort for.  Those of us who struggle with this are usually care givers who give everything we have to help someone else believe the very things we need to believe ourselves.  Why is that?  I've always thought that it's easy to recognize in another what is so prevalent in ourselves.  So, if we see someone struggling with self esteem issues or not knowing how to pick themselves up after a hard day.  We know exactly what to say.....they tell us we're wise and have it all together.  Little do they know...we say those things because we need to hear them and believe them ourselves.  I say that like I'm not talking about me, but us as a collective.  But basically, this is me.  I'm at that stage in life where I'm lonely, bored and have enough aches and pains for 10 people.  I'm sick and tired of feeling sick and tired....now that's not an old one!  :-)  It's old but true.

There's a ladies bible study that gets together once a week.  Right now we're learning about the "Sacred Romance".  A great study by the way.  I'm learning that I am worth fighting for because someone already has fought for me, with His life.  I don't think I'm alone even though I feel that way sometimes.  I don't think my life is all there is left for me either.  I think there is a purpose and a plan in store for me.  Right now, I'm learning how to believe that I'm worth fighting for.  All those things I say to others, to help them, is true for me also.  I promise this blog won't be a preachy kind of thing, but my faith is part of me.  A big part of me and I'm learning how to turn over the reigns to someone who has my best interest in mind regardless of how it looks.  I hope you all know that you're worth going the extra mile for...just like you're willing to do for others, do for you.  Until next time,  do something good for you, anything even if it's just a long bath.  Patty