Who I am

 You know, I have no idea exactly what is on my mind today. Many many thing cross it on a regular basis.  I have so much inside me that no one ever actually sees.  I enjoy my job tremendously.  I work well with other people and endear myself to the people I work with and around. So, I believe they like me back, even if they do think I'm a bit strange, which is very true.  My biggest problem with my job is actually getting there.  It's a 9 to 5 sort of thing and I have fibromyalgia and osteoarthritis (which is a whole other blog).  I have adult children whom I love very much but didn't exactly do a tremendous job at mothering.  I am an enabler by nature and it's difficult for me to change that part of myself.  I try, I fail, and I try again.  I don't give up though and I think that's the biggest hurdle.

I used to be a wild thing,  there really wasn't anything I was unwilling to try.  I think I used almost every type of drug available at the time, except heroine.  At that time, it was taboo even among "normal" drug users.  I never had any of the designer drugs.  It took me years to stay away from marijuana which was definately my drug of choice.  To this day, if it ever became legal, I'd probably be right back at it.  Anyway, I left home at an early age and started cocktail waitressing.  I made pretty good money and definately learned alot about men.  I grew up without any brothers and my dad died young so they were an enigma to me, and still are.  It's kind of amusing that I ended up with 3 boys and 1 daughter to raise.  I was so clueless.  I'm 48 years old, but it just doesn't seem real to me.  However, I have lots of wisdom (at least I think) to share with others and as the mood strikes me, I'll bring it to my blog.  Tonight I just wanted to tell you that I'm here.  There's much I wish to discuss with everyone.  I have my faith, I have an interest in books and movies.  I consider myself smart and I have a great empathy for others.  I also seem to know the right thing to say to help others.  I give great advice, I don't always live my own advice, but that's my problem, not yours.  Eventually I'd like to talk about my illness and how I cope.  I also want to share some of the funnier things I encounter.  I have a crazy family (most people do) and have have a subject matter if I really want one.

As far as politics are concerned, I have opinions but will share those another time, but I DO plan to vote.  Enough for now.  I'll be back tomorrow and have something to share with anyone willing to listen.  For now, I look forward to feedback, much love to you and take care of each other.   Patty