Hello Everyone,
Did you know that it's difficult to put a child to sleep while typing? It is, just saying. That has absolutely nothing to do with my topic today, but it was "in the moment" so I thought I'd share. Now I can use capital letters and everything. Woohoo!! YAY me!!
Okay, so through this blog, I had a blast from the past return to my life. I have to admit it has me a little nervous, out of my comfort zone, intrigued all at once. As many of you already know I've been single for quite a while and I have no plans to change that at this time. But friendship, who knows, it would be nice to have a companion and someone to share daily thoughts and events with. The unfortunate part is that I'm not interested in going backwards. But, in all honesty, that's not what this is. The past is over and forgotten, but perhaps renewing a friendship would be a healing thing.
I've been kind of flighty lately, which typically, you the reader wouldn't know about. I'm fairly good at hiding my faults, at least on paper.....so to speak. However, with me needing to talk to someone more regularly, you get to see, or rather read, the part of me that still struggles with things that should have been dealt with years ago. I guess it's true, there are times, when I think as an adolescent. That's not a bad thing if it keeps you young. But what if it holds you back? Most people my age still think of themselves as they were in their younger years and like me, they look in the mirror and wonder who this old person is looking back at them. I don't want to lead you to believe I'd like to go back to those times......NO WAY!!! I've earned every stripe I have and going back I would probably do everything different and my children wouldn't be who they are and I wouldn't have the experiences I have that have made me a better person. It may not always sound true, but I am content with what I have right now, this very moment. I've been blessed with sisters that love me and encourage me and financially take care of me.....for now. I have children that love me and show up at the most needful times. Yesterday was a particular bad day for me at a point in the morning. I was standing at the kitchen sink and I turn around and there's my son with my grandson for me to take for the day. It's like I was given a gift. I wrote in my blog that I needed someone to help, so I could feel better and He sent me my grandson. Is that a blessing or what?
I will try to keep you updated on this blast from the past. Right now it's an old friend that just may need a friend, just like me. I'm thankful for the few of you who take the time to read my ramblings and I pray that someone gets what they need from my little letters. But encouragement is always welcome. In the meantime, I'll continue to bore you with my mundane life and maybe, just maybe find some perspective myself. Love Patty
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