Good Evening Everyone,
I know it's a strange time for me to write a blog, but I guess I am strange, so there. Today, there was a time that I and someone else spent looking back over the years and the changes that have occurred. I thought a lot about my childhood and my oldest sister who is to this day my "go to" person whenever I need to straighten out my head. This blog was originally started because somewhere in this crazy head of mine, I actually thought I had some smalls pieces or "nuggets" of experience that I could share that might help someone gain perspective on issues they're having. Yeah, that's not exactly what's been going on lately.
Usually you can tell how healthy my head is by looking at the state of my living arrangements. Does that ever happen to you? I find that if my room is a mess, chances are.....so am I. If my space is cluttered, that usually means my mind is too. Maybe that's why I only have family around. LOL I consider myself an open book, but now I think that's overstated. I think I'm leaning toward the "can't touch me" individual who ends up lonely and angry with the world. That is not at all what I want. Hopefully there will be an easier way for me to have lasting peace. Perhaps I should spend more time with the Creator. That usually sets me in a firm place. Now, knowing this makes me wonder, why don't I go to Him more often? I guess I know the answer to that but it just seems so difficult sometimes. Why is the easiest thing sometimes the most difficult. Humbling ourselves in the presence of a holy God is not a difficult task, but where He leads us to after that, is a whole other blog.
I really don't have anything more to say, other than to remember John 13:34 "A new commandment I give unto you, that you love one another; as I have loved you, that you also love one another." It sounds so simple, in the mean time, until we meet again, please remember to Be Wise, Be Kind, Be True, Love, Patty
Thursday, June 26, 2014
Wednesday, June 25, 2014
I should just LET IT GO, right?
Good Afternoon Everyone,
I wasn't going to write a blog today, but I have something just spinning in my head and it HAS to come out, one way or the other. As an adult, I have friends, some male, some female. We can go months without speaking, some much longer. But, when we think of this person, we give a call or a shout out on social media sites, etc and say hello, how is everything going, we should grab some coffee and catch up sometime. This has not been a problem since I was in high school (obviously we didn't have the social media access of today).
I had someone this week block my emails and such because I didn't want to talk to them several times a day. It was only on the phone a couple of times the rest was all emails. I started to feel guilty because this person was acting like I was ignoring them if I didn't respond right away. Sometimes they had to wait a day before I would see the email, then respond. Definitely not 2 days, nevertheless, they took offense when I attempted to point this out. I may have overstated my problem, but basically I was feeling a little uncomfortable. It's too bad though. This person has a lot to offer in the way of friendship. I feel bad I was not able to fill whatever void they had.
The other issue just running through my head is that I am self-centered at times. It's something I'm trying to be more aware of and work on. I pray to have it pointed out to me when I do get caught up in myself. It's NOT like I think I'm all that or that my life experiences are any more difficult than the next persons. However, I can't walk a mile in someone else's shoes, only my own. I love getting on social media sites and look through what others have posted and it usually puts me back in line. Seeing what others struggle with is usually a humbling experience. Frankly, my shoes are more comfortable, because they fit my feet, ya know?
Today I'd like to leave you with one of my favorite verses in James 3:17 "But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, reasonable, full of mercy and good fruits, unwavering, without hypocrisy." I wish to all of you who take my time to read my ramblings be blessed beyond measure even if I'm blocked by email. Be Kind, Be Wise, Be True, Love Patty
I wasn't going to write a blog today, but I have something just spinning in my head and it HAS to come out, one way or the other. As an adult, I have friends, some male, some female. We can go months without speaking, some much longer. But, when we think of this person, we give a call or a shout out on social media sites, etc and say hello, how is everything going, we should grab some coffee and catch up sometime. This has not been a problem since I was in high school (obviously we didn't have the social media access of today).
I had someone this week block my emails and such because I didn't want to talk to them several times a day. It was only on the phone a couple of times the rest was all emails. I started to feel guilty because this person was acting like I was ignoring them if I didn't respond right away. Sometimes they had to wait a day before I would see the email, then respond. Definitely not 2 days, nevertheless, they took offense when I attempted to point this out. I may have overstated my problem, but basically I was feeling a little uncomfortable. It's too bad though. This person has a lot to offer in the way of friendship. I feel bad I was not able to fill whatever void they had.
The other issue just running through my head is that I am self-centered at times. It's something I'm trying to be more aware of and work on. I pray to have it pointed out to me when I do get caught up in myself. It's NOT like I think I'm all that or that my life experiences are any more difficult than the next persons. However, I can't walk a mile in someone else's shoes, only my own. I love getting on social media sites and look through what others have posted and it usually puts me back in line. Seeing what others struggle with is usually a humbling experience. Frankly, my shoes are more comfortable, because they fit my feet, ya know?
Today I'd like to leave you with one of my favorite verses in James 3:17 "But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, reasonable, full of mercy and good fruits, unwavering, without hypocrisy." I wish to all of you who take my time to read my ramblings be blessed beyond measure even if I'm blocked by email. Be Kind, Be Wise, Be True, Love Patty
Friday, June 20, 2014
News everyone could use.......my thanks to "Dorkdad" whoever you are
Good Morning Everyone,
This is starting out to be a great day. I read something this morning that I'd like to share with you. These are 20 things every father should share with their daughter. I don't know who the author is other than "Dorkdad" but I truly believe they should be available for others to share with their daughters.
This is starting out to be a great day. I read something this morning that I'd like to share with you. These are 20 things every father should share with their daughter. I don't know who the author is other than "Dorkdad" but I truly believe they should be available for others to share with their daughters.
1) Pay attention to the way a man loves his mother. That is the way he will love you.
2) You can do anything a man can do, including organic chemistry, unclogging toilets and assembling IKEA furniture.
3) Older women wear makeup so THEY can look like YOU. Less is more. A lot less is a lot more.
4) People will judge you by the way you look. It isn’t fair, but it’s the way the world works. Keep that in mind as you pick your outfit in the morning.
5) Never let anyone do your thinking for you. There are far too many people with far too much invested in you believing what they believe.
6) Liberal arts grow your mind. Science and business keep you fed. You will need both.
7) Nothing is more attractive than intelligence.
8) Learn to drive a stick-shift.
9) Get comfortable with power tools.
10) You don’t have to enjoy them, but have a working knowledge of the rules for football and baseball.
11) Know the difference between Star Wars and Star Trek, and they key players in both.
12) You don’t have to *DO* anything for someone to love you. The right person will cross a desert just for the chance to sit next to you at lunch.
13) Peer pressure is all about insecurity. Be confident in who you are and you’ll never have to “fit in”. People will come to you.
14) The fastest way to strain a relationship with a man is to bring up old drama. We can’t remember to hang up the bath towel. What makes you think we remember that stupid thing we did 6 months ago?
15) If a man genuinely loves you, he will let you set the boundaries. Don’t let anyone take something from you they can’t give back. You set the tone for the sexual relationship.
16) Feminie hygiene products — Where our daughters are concerned, we would be very happy sticking our fingers in our ears and saying “lalalalalalalala”. Please respect our need to pretend they, and the reason for them, do not exist. The same goes for lacy underthings.
17) You were flawless the day you were born. If you must go get that first tattoo, please consider inviting your daddy to come and get his first tattoo with you.
18) You are perfect the way you roll out of bed. Let’s be clear: all that crap you do to “get out the door” is for everyone else’s benefit.
19) Though he may be smiling on the outside, when you leave for college your father is falling apart on the inside. Don’t forget to call him that first night to tell him you love him.
20) Compare every single boy you ever meet to your daddy. Nobody will love you like he does.
-DD
I want to take the opportunity to thank Dorkdad for sharing these. I loved it. I know it's past Father's Day but my dad's been gone for more than 40 years and don't think my daughter ever heard these. It's good for sons to read too......something they should know to share once they become a daddy to a little girl.
Until next time, Be Kind, Be Wise, Be True, Love, Patty
Monday, June 16, 2014
Trying to peek over the fence
Good Morning Everyone,
I don't think it's a secret that things have been difficult for me lately. There are so many changes happening all at once and most of the time, I have no idea what the next change will be. Or how those changes will effect me. I know that I should be more thankful than I am. I am thankful, very thankful. That doesn't mean that this year has been easy for me. I really dislike that I use this blog as my therapy. But, it is my therapy. I learned this at the first job I had working with people in crisis. I found that the more I helped others, the healthier I was becoming. This also has the opposite effect. When I isolate myself away from others, I'm not helping anyone or myself. Isolating makes my issues more obvious and painful. It really makes me wish I had some sort of interaction with the public so I am not just writing for writings sake. Do you know what I'm trying to say?
It's kind of like when they say that to forgive someone is not for the benefit of the one being forgiven, the benefit falls onto the person who does the forgiving. It is a sort of Karma, or what goes around, come around, or you reap what you sow. It's a thought that seems to transcend religion. Unless I'm mistaken, it's a belief that most "faiths" pretty much agree on.
Lately it feels like something is changing and I can't put my finger on it. There is a restlessness that is there yet I don't want to leave my apt. The extra something is not just effecting me. It seems to be touching everyone who visits for any amount of time. There's a heaviness and it just drains every bit of energy I have. I'm having difficulty enjoying any of the things I've enjoyed in the past. Yes I'm well aware that depression is basically what I just described. Hey I'm doing my part, I'm sharing my thoughts, I'm willing to help others if I'm physically healthy. Do you want to hear what's really horrible?? When I'm having one of these days when I can't use the restroom without looking like someone with narcolepsy......It's a good thing I don't know any drug users anymore, I think I would have a hard time saying no to that kind of energy. Thankfully The Lord protects me from myself. I'm going to leave you with one of my favorite verses in the Book of Ephesians 2:8-10 "For by grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not as a result of works, that no one should boast. For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them." Until next time, Be Wise, Be Kind, Be True, love, Patty
I don't think it's a secret that things have been difficult for me lately. There are so many changes happening all at once and most of the time, I have no idea what the next change will be. Or how those changes will effect me. I know that I should be more thankful than I am. I am thankful, very thankful. That doesn't mean that this year has been easy for me. I really dislike that I use this blog as my therapy. But, it is my therapy. I learned this at the first job I had working with people in crisis. I found that the more I helped others, the healthier I was becoming. This also has the opposite effect. When I isolate myself away from others, I'm not helping anyone or myself. Isolating makes my issues more obvious and painful. It really makes me wish I had some sort of interaction with the public so I am not just writing for writings sake. Do you know what I'm trying to say?
It's kind of like when they say that to forgive someone is not for the benefit of the one being forgiven, the benefit falls onto the person who does the forgiving. It is a sort of Karma, or what goes around, come around, or you reap what you sow. It's a thought that seems to transcend religion. Unless I'm mistaken, it's a belief that most "faiths" pretty much agree on.
Lately it feels like something is changing and I can't put my finger on it. There is a restlessness that is there yet I don't want to leave my apt. The extra something is not just effecting me. It seems to be touching everyone who visits for any amount of time. There's a heaviness and it just drains every bit of energy I have. I'm having difficulty enjoying any of the things I've enjoyed in the past. Yes I'm well aware that depression is basically what I just described. Hey I'm doing my part, I'm sharing my thoughts, I'm willing to help others if I'm physically healthy. Do you want to hear what's really horrible?? When I'm having one of these days when I can't use the restroom without looking like someone with narcolepsy......It's a good thing I don't know any drug users anymore, I think I would have a hard time saying no to that kind of energy. Thankfully The Lord protects me from myself. I'm going to leave you with one of my favorite verses in the Book of Ephesians 2:8-10 "For by grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not as a result of works, that no one should boast. For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them." Until next time, Be Wise, Be Kind, Be True, love, Patty
Help I've fallen and I can't get up
Good Morning Everyone,
This has been a strange week. Have you been having a similar week? Friday I had a Dr. appt for a medication check and found out I've gained back the weight I lost when I first moved back to Blair so, yeah, that was exciting news. Then, since I don't have a washer and dryer I had taken a load of clothes to my sisters place to wash. I was carrying them outside to the car and basically tripped over a cat I was trying to avoid. Somewhere in that mess, I forgot all about the step coming out of her door and fell onto the concrete porch of hers. The weird thing is, the basket broke my fall and other than just basically setting off a fibromyalgia flare-up, there have so far been no bruising or anything. Which for me is amazing. I can bruise just thinking about bumping something.....clearly I'm joking but you get my point.
Anyway, this seems to be my week of disappointing people. My daughter got very upset with me when I refused to go to the E.R. or the walk in clinic to be checked out. I understand her frustration because she lost her grandmother due to the exact same circumstance.....falling while carrying a basket of clothes. So, I haven't seen or heard from my daughter for a couple of days. I'm hoping if I leave her be for a few days she'll forgive me for not following her advice. She was just worried and I understand that. I've also not been online a lot lately and therefore haven't written a blog in a week or so.....more disappointment. Then there is someone else that is upset with me and I honestly don't have any idea why. Now THAT is frustrating.
I haven't really been given a chance to just rest after my fall, so today that is my goal. I'm going to stay in my room, avoid the world and pray that I manage to not upset everyone again. So, if there is anyone who may or may not be expecting something from me today, I'm letting you know in advance, I probably will be letting you down today.
Before I close this post, I have a prayer request. My son and daughter in law are in need of a car since theirs was totaled in the hail storm. Please pray that they can get an affordable loan and a good reliable car. Thank you so much. I would like to leave you with one of my favorite verses in Psalms 139:23-24 "Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts; And see if there be any hurtful way in me, And lead me in the everlasting way." I know it's not the first time I've used these 2 verses, but they are a couple of my favorite verses. Believe me when I say, that most of the time, the verses out of the bible I share, are verses I myself need to hear. Until next time, Be Wise, Be Kind, Be True, Patty
This has been a strange week. Have you been having a similar week? Friday I had a Dr. appt for a medication check and found out I've gained back the weight I lost when I first moved back to Blair so, yeah, that was exciting news. Then, since I don't have a washer and dryer I had taken a load of clothes to my sisters place to wash. I was carrying them outside to the car and basically tripped over a cat I was trying to avoid. Somewhere in that mess, I forgot all about the step coming out of her door and fell onto the concrete porch of hers. The weird thing is, the basket broke my fall and other than just basically setting off a fibromyalgia flare-up, there have so far been no bruising or anything. Which for me is amazing. I can bruise just thinking about bumping something.....clearly I'm joking but you get my point.
Anyway, this seems to be my week of disappointing people. My daughter got very upset with me when I refused to go to the E.R. or the walk in clinic to be checked out. I understand her frustration because she lost her grandmother due to the exact same circumstance.....falling while carrying a basket of clothes. So, I haven't seen or heard from my daughter for a couple of days. I'm hoping if I leave her be for a few days she'll forgive me for not following her advice. She was just worried and I understand that. I've also not been online a lot lately and therefore haven't written a blog in a week or so.....more disappointment. Then there is someone else that is upset with me and I honestly don't have any idea why. Now THAT is frustrating.
I haven't really been given a chance to just rest after my fall, so today that is my goal. I'm going to stay in my room, avoid the world and pray that I manage to not upset everyone again. So, if there is anyone who may or may not be expecting something from me today, I'm letting you know in advance, I probably will be letting you down today.
Before I close this post, I have a prayer request. My son and daughter in law are in need of a car since theirs was totaled in the hail storm. Please pray that they can get an affordable loan and a good reliable car. Thank you so much. I would like to leave you with one of my favorite verses in Psalms 139:23-24 "Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts; And see if there be any hurtful way in me, And lead me in the everlasting way." I know it's not the first time I've used these 2 verses, but they are a couple of my favorite verses. Believe me when I say, that most of the time, the verses out of the bible I share, are verses I myself need to hear. Until next time, Be Wise, Be Kind, Be True, Patty
Tuesday, June 10, 2014
I do believe somethings a brewin
Good Morning Everyone,
Have you ever woke up with that weird kind of feeling that's almost dream, almost reality? I do, on occasion have that twilight sleep when I'm trying to wake up. This is different though. All day yesterday, I've had this unrest. I'll try to explain it, but hopefully you'll understand what I'm attempting to write down. It's just that for the past few days, I have felt like I'm forgetting something.....important something. I have no idea what it is. I keep going on and doing what I usually do but something is off. Do you know what I mean?
I wish much like the rest of humanity to have the ability to always make the best decisions at all times. Fortunately that just isn't how it works and for good reason. We may think we know what's best for us but in reality, for reasons that remain unknown, had a different choice been made. Then nothing would be as it is. And where we are right now then, must be exactly how things are supposed to be.....right?
Ok, on to a less irksome subject. What do you, my friends and family think about a little story that occurred this morning. I fell asleep after having dinner with my daughter and her fiancee' and they came in and told me they were leaving. I was awake and no problem....right? The next I know, I'm being woke up at 5:50am by someone trying to get into the front door. At first I thought maybe it was my daughter in law bringing my grandson. So I waited a few minutes, finally I open my eyes and realize my bedroom light is on.....very strange, I get up and all the lights in the living room are on and get this.........the door was unlocked. I locked it and shut off the lights, but it took me a little bit to get back to sleep. What that was......I have NO idea, however, I will be making sure I actually get up to shut things down if I have my kids here around my bedtime.
This morning I leave you with one of my favorite verses out of Ephesians 2:18-22 "for through Him we both have our access in one Spirit to the Father. So then you are no longer strangers and aliens, but you are fellow citizens with the saints, and are of God's household, having been built upon the foundation of the apoltles and prophets, Christ Jesus Himself being the corner stone, in whom the whole building , being fitted together is growing into a holy temple in the Lord; in whom you also are being built together into a dwelling of God in the Spirit."
I don't know if those verses fit, but that's where I was led. Until I write again, please be kind, be wise and be true to each other. Love, Patty
Have you ever woke up with that weird kind of feeling that's almost dream, almost reality? I do, on occasion have that twilight sleep when I'm trying to wake up. This is different though. All day yesterday, I've had this unrest. I'll try to explain it, but hopefully you'll understand what I'm attempting to write down. It's just that for the past few days, I have felt like I'm forgetting something.....important something. I have no idea what it is. I keep going on and doing what I usually do but something is off. Do you know what I mean?
I wish much like the rest of humanity to have the ability to always make the best decisions at all times. Fortunately that just isn't how it works and for good reason. We may think we know what's best for us but in reality, for reasons that remain unknown, had a different choice been made. Then nothing would be as it is. And where we are right now then, must be exactly how things are supposed to be.....right?
Ok, on to a less irksome subject. What do you, my friends and family think about a little story that occurred this morning. I fell asleep after having dinner with my daughter and her fiancee' and they came in and told me they were leaving. I was awake and no problem....right? The next I know, I'm being woke up at 5:50am by someone trying to get into the front door. At first I thought maybe it was my daughter in law bringing my grandson. So I waited a few minutes, finally I open my eyes and realize my bedroom light is on.....very strange, I get up and all the lights in the living room are on and get this.........the door was unlocked. I locked it and shut off the lights, but it took me a little bit to get back to sleep. What that was......I have NO idea, however, I will be making sure I actually get up to shut things down if I have my kids here around my bedtime.
This morning I leave you with one of my favorite verses out of Ephesians 2:18-22 "for through Him we both have our access in one Spirit to the Father. So then you are no longer strangers and aliens, but you are fellow citizens with the saints, and are of God's household, having been built upon the foundation of the apoltles and prophets, Christ Jesus Himself being the corner stone, in whom the whole building , being fitted together is growing into a holy temple in the Lord; in whom you also are being built together into a dwelling of God in the Spirit."
I don't know if those verses fit, but that's where I was led. Until I write again, please be kind, be wise and be true to each other. Love, Patty
Friday, June 6, 2014
Love is not a dirty word
Good Morning Everyone,
As we begin a new day, I hope to also have a new attitude, a new and shiny bright outlook for this coming weekend. But, the carnival is in town. I don't do well with all the fanfare and noise. I'm thankful that I don't live right next to it like my sister does. It would be different if my children were still children, but they are adults now and no longer come to me for the $20 I don't have anymore so they can ride the rides and play the games. It's funny, I went to high school here and I don't remember the carnival at that age. I do remember riding the Ferris Wheel, the first time I got pregnant. That was not a wise choice. That ride scares the bejesus out of me.
When my kids were little, it was always a fun time. The parade was a highlight of the summer beginning. We would pack up some chairs and find a place to sit along the parade route and the kids would bag as much candy as they could. They didn't throw out as much candy back then as they do now. Kids today, literally need a bag to hold it all. My kids were okay with their pants pockets or my purse. Actually, I'm sure their dad handled that after the divorce. As he always had them on Saturdays, I had them on Fridays. Those poor kids, what a mess divorce causes for the kids. I wish once again that I knew then what I know now. So many things would have been different.
I still fight the same issues about myself that I fought then. I struggle with my self-esteem and have trust issues. The only difference being that now I don't try to control anymore. I have finally learned that I can't change anyone. Everyone is in charge of their own choices. I no longer fear what others choose, even if it's not me. That one lesson was the hardest for me to learn. Now I fear getting involved in another relationship. I fear that those same feelings of neediness will return. I have so many walls up when it comes to the thought of a romantic relationship. I don't think anyone is capable of scaling them. I have resigned myself to spending my remaining years alone. Most of the time, that doesn't bother me. Sometimes, it really does.
I'm open to friendship. I have learned over the years that it's not possible to love someone if you don't know them. If someone feels like they love someone but have not gotten to know them, then that is probably lust or fear of being alone. I am 50 years old. If I'm going to spend the rest of my years with someone, it better be with someone I like and enjoy being with. It sounds so simple doesn't it. It is actually, but you have to be patient. It takes time getting to know someone. Especially when you have no income and no vehicle. LOL.
My walls are not that large. I may have overstated that before. I'm open to what the Lord has in store for me. I know that if a relationship is to truly last, they are going to have to get to me through Him. He is the creator of love. If He approves, then who am I to deny that? I wouldn't even try. I'm done fighting, even with the Lord. His ways are slowly and I do mean slowly, becoming my destination.
Today I leave you with one of my favorite verses in Ephesians 4:22-24 "That, in reference to your former manner of life, you lay aside the old self, which is being corrupted in accordance with the lusts of deceit, and that you be renewed in the spirit of your mind, and put on the new self, which in the likeness of God has been created in righteousness and holiness of the truth." You got to love Ephesians. There are so many good verses to choose from.
Be wise, Be kind, Be true to yourself and others and everything will fall into place. Love, Patty
As we begin a new day, I hope to also have a new attitude, a new and shiny bright outlook for this coming weekend. But, the carnival is in town. I don't do well with all the fanfare and noise. I'm thankful that I don't live right next to it like my sister does. It would be different if my children were still children, but they are adults now and no longer come to me for the $20 I don't have anymore so they can ride the rides and play the games. It's funny, I went to high school here and I don't remember the carnival at that age. I do remember riding the Ferris Wheel, the first time I got pregnant. That was not a wise choice. That ride scares the bejesus out of me.
When my kids were little, it was always a fun time. The parade was a highlight of the summer beginning. We would pack up some chairs and find a place to sit along the parade route and the kids would bag as much candy as they could. They didn't throw out as much candy back then as they do now. Kids today, literally need a bag to hold it all. My kids were okay with their pants pockets or my purse. Actually, I'm sure their dad handled that after the divorce. As he always had them on Saturdays, I had them on Fridays. Those poor kids, what a mess divorce causes for the kids. I wish once again that I knew then what I know now. So many things would have been different.
I still fight the same issues about myself that I fought then. I struggle with my self-esteem and have trust issues. The only difference being that now I don't try to control anymore. I have finally learned that I can't change anyone. Everyone is in charge of their own choices. I no longer fear what others choose, even if it's not me. That one lesson was the hardest for me to learn. Now I fear getting involved in another relationship. I fear that those same feelings of neediness will return. I have so many walls up when it comes to the thought of a romantic relationship. I don't think anyone is capable of scaling them. I have resigned myself to spending my remaining years alone. Most of the time, that doesn't bother me. Sometimes, it really does.
I'm open to friendship. I have learned over the years that it's not possible to love someone if you don't know them. If someone feels like they love someone but have not gotten to know them, then that is probably lust or fear of being alone. I am 50 years old. If I'm going to spend the rest of my years with someone, it better be with someone I like and enjoy being with. It sounds so simple doesn't it. It is actually, but you have to be patient. It takes time getting to know someone. Especially when you have no income and no vehicle. LOL.
My walls are not that large. I may have overstated that before. I'm open to what the Lord has in store for me. I know that if a relationship is to truly last, they are going to have to get to me through Him. He is the creator of love. If He approves, then who am I to deny that? I wouldn't even try. I'm done fighting, even with the Lord. His ways are slowly and I do mean slowly, becoming my destination.
Today I leave you with one of my favorite verses in Ephesians 4:22-24 "That, in reference to your former manner of life, you lay aside the old self, which is being corrupted in accordance with the lusts of deceit, and that you be renewed in the spirit of your mind, and put on the new self, which in the likeness of God has been created in righteousness and holiness of the truth." You got to love Ephesians. There are so many good verses to choose from.
Be wise, Be kind, Be true to yourself and others and everything will fall into place. Love, Patty
Tuesday, June 3, 2014
The storm from within and the storm in the sky
Good Morning Everyone,
Yesterday was such an adventurist day. It started out simple enough, my sister and I walked her dogs and checked out the two thrift stores in town. Then it's time to head into Omaha to pick up my other sister. Now, by this time, I've already had more than enough exercise and it's not even noon yet. So, we get my sister and I home and now it's time to move this solid oak, beautiful dresser top mirror. Heavy as you can imagine. Well there was only two of us to move it and it couldn't be my sister. She had back surgery just a couple of weeks ago and is still recuperating. So, thankfully my future son-in-law steps up and helps me take it up the steps to our apartment. Ouch.....did I say OUCH, because I had the most agonizing pain shoot right up from my lower back on the left side through to the center of my lower back, and up it went.
But wait, there's more. I was sitting there at my desk, looking through all the notifications on my computer that I'd missed during the day. Just minding my own business when all of a sudden I hear this knocking sound on the windows and I realize we are getting pounded with hail......did not expect this.....I was busy earlier and had no idea we had rough weather coming our way. Besides, Blair almost never gets the bad stuff. No problem, right?! NOT!! It's fortunate for my sister and I that we live on the 2nd floor because all of the people downstairs along the west side of the building had all their windows broke out. Four out of five vehicles in the parking lot had windows broken. My sister's windshield got spider-webbed. I can honestly say that I've been in and out of Blair since my high school years, back in the dark ages...lol.....and I have NEVER seen it hit this bad in Blair. I still have a piece of hail in the freezer that's a fairly good size and I picked it up a good 20 minutes after the storm had passed, so you know it had to have melted some during that time. The weird thing is, I was afraid. I never get scared during storms. I usually get an adrenaline rush. I believe this stems from my young formative years when my dad was still alive and he would put us all in the car and we would drive all over chasing tornadoes. I was brought up to find them fascinating, not scary. But, there wasn't a tornado warning, just very high winds and large hail. Could have fooled me.
My other sister had all her windows in her little house broken out and the rear window of her car has baseball size holes in it. She is devastated. She jokes that now her car is dimpled like her behind....lol, she always manages to see the funny side of things. I love you Mel.
Needless to say, my body has responded to the physical stress and also the mental stress of last nights storms. But my grandson Pax, should be here soon and I look forward to having my mind taken off my physical body pain right now. His smile lights up my entire day. It's moments like that, makes me thankful to be alive. I try pretty hard to not sweat the small stuff. Sometimes I succeed and other times I fail miserably. I'm going to try to post a picture of the piece of hail I picked up, so hopefully I don't mess that up. Regardless, I would like to share with you one of my favorite verses out of the book of Psalms 91:1-2 "He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say to the Lord, "My refuge and my fortress, My God, in whom I trust!""
Until next time, be wise, be kind, be true and never fear what may come your way, The Lord is able to keep you in perfect peace, regardless of the circumstances......if you allow Him. Love each other, Love, Patty
Yesterday was such an adventurist day. It started out simple enough, my sister and I walked her dogs and checked out the two thrift stores in town. Then it's time to head into Omaha to pick up my other sister. Now, by this time, I've already had more than enough exercise and it's not even noon yet. So, we get my sister and I home and now it's time to move this solid oak, beautiful dresser top mirror. Heavy as you can imagine. Well there was only two of us to move it and it couldn't be my sister. She had back surgery just a couple of weeks ago and is still recuperating. So, thankfully my future son-in-law steps up and helps me take it up the steps to our apartment. Ouch.....did I say OUCH, because I had the most agonizing pain shoot right up from my lower back on the left side through to the center of my lower back, and up it went.
But wait, there's more. I was sitting there at my desk, looking through all the notifications on my computer that I'd missed during the day. Just minding my own business when all of a sudden I hear this knocking sound on the windows and I realize we are getting pounded with hail......did not expect this.....I was busy earlier and had no idea we had rough weather coming our way. Besides, Blair almost never gets the bad stuff. No problem, right?! NOT!! It's fortunate for my sister and I that we live on the 2nd floor because all of the people downstairs along the west side of the building had all their windows broke out. Four out of five vehicles in the parking lot had windows broken. My sister's windshield got spider-webbed. I can honestly say that I've been in and out of Blair since my high school years, back in the dark ages...lol.....and I have NEVER seen it hit this bad in Blair. I still have a piece of hail in the freezer that's a fairly good size and I picked it up a good 20 minutes after the storm had passed, so you know it had to have melted some during that time. The weird thing is, I was afraid. I never get scared during storms. I usually get an adrenaline rush. I believe this stems from my young formative years when my dad was still alive and he would put us all in the car and we would drive all over chasing tornadoes. I was brought up to find them fascinating, not scary. But, there wasn't a tornado warning, just very high winds and large hail. Could have fooled me.
My other sister had all her windows in her little house broken out and the rear window of her car has baseball size holes in it. She is devastated. She jokes that now her car is dimpled like her behind....lol, she always manages to see the funny side of things. I love you Mel.
Needless to say, my body has responded to the physical stress and also the mental stress of last nights storms. But my grandson Pax, should be here soon and I look forward to having my mind taken off my physical body pain right now. His smile lights up my entire day. It's moments like that, makes me thankful to be alive. I try pretty hard to not sweat the small stuff. Sometimes I succeed and other times I fail miserably. I'm going to try to post a picture of the piece of hail I picked up, so hopefully I don't mess that up. Regardless, I would like to share with you one of my favorite verses out of the book of Psalms 91:1-2 "He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say to the Lord, "My refuge and my fortress, My God, in whom I trust!""
Until next time, be wise, be kind, be true and never fear what may come your way, The Lord is able to keep you in perfect peace, regardless of the circumstances......if you allow Him. Love each other, Love, Patty
Monday, June 2, 2014
I never really liked me, until I learned who I am
Good Morning Everyone,
So far this year, which is almost half over, has been my year of learning how to receive and still have joy. I know that sounds strange to some of you. But, when you've spent your life giving to your kids and spouses and even as a kid, not having the necessities of life, it's not easy to receive. I've had one person to count on most of my life.....or so I thought.....which I thought was me. I was so wrong. I led me more astray than the worst of villains. I denied myself the necessities of life. I have never really liked me, until I learned who I am.
It's been obvious who my various roles have been. I know I'm a mother, a sister, a grandmother, a friend, but I haven't considered myself a child for a very long time. But, I am a child. I'm a child of God and He sees me as the apple of His eye. He is especially fond of me, much like everyone else. The thing is though, it is personal, very personal. He doesn't just love mankind, all humans and animals, He loves ME, just as I am. I'm pretty sure they wrote a song about that. lol.
I know this sounds so elementary to most of you.....and it is. It's so simple a child can understand it. Children automatically know they are special unless you've treated them different. They are born knowing how to receive love and care. I don't think that's a coincidence either. When I consider the significance of that, it's staggering. Having my grandson Paxton a few times a week is teaching me more about love than any book ever could, even the Bible. I'm a hands on learner. Some things I can learn by reading, but most things for me is hands on. You can't just show me the instructions of a software program and expect me to use it right away. But, working with the program at the same time I'm reading is most effective. Maybe that's why The Lord has chosen this particular time to teach me something new. He's teaching me how to receive by His Word and by example....my grandson. I think maybe I have never loved before, other than my children and grandchildren, and that's because they are so easy to love. But, I've never really allowed myself to give and receive at the same time, at least not as an adult. I hope you understand what I'm saying. I have loved before, but I don't think I've loved as I was intended to love.
I'm going to leave you with one of my favorite verses in Matthew 11:28-30 "Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart; and you shall find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy, and My load is light."
I pray today that your yoke is light and that you receive as a child would, the joy that is set before you. Until next time, love each other, Love, Patty
So far this year, which is almost half over, has been my year of learning how to receive and still have joy. I know that sounds strange to some of you. But, when you've spent your life giving to your kids and spouses and even as a kid, not having the necessities of life, it's not easy to receive. I've had one person to count on most of my life.....or so I thought.....which I thought was me. I was so wrong. I led me more astray than the worst of villains. I denied myself the necessities of life. I have never really liked me, until I learned who I am.
It's been obvious who my various roles have been. I know I'm a mother, a sister, a grandmother, a friend, but I haven't considered myself a child for a very long time. But, I am a child. I'm a child of God and He sees me as the apple of His eye. He is especially fond of me, much like everyone else. The thing is though, it is personal, very personal. He doesn't just love mankind, all humans and animals, He loves ME, just as I am. I'm pretty sure they wrote a song about that. lol.
I know this sounds so elementary to most of you.....and it is. It's so simple a child can understand it. Children automatically know they are special unless you've treated them different. They are born knowing how to receive love and care. I don't think that's a coincidence either. When I consider the significance of that, it's staggering. Having my grandson Paxton a few times a week is teaching me more about love than any book ever could, even the Bible. I'm a hands on learner. Some things I can learn by reading, but most things for me is hands on. You can't just show me the instructions of a software program and expect me to use it right away. But, working with the program at the same time I'm reading is most effective. Maybe that's why The Lord has chosen this particular time to teach me something new. He's teaching me how to receive by His Word and by example....my grandson. I think maybe I have never loved before, other than my children and grandchildren, and that's because they are so easy to love. But, I've never really allowed myself to give and receive at the same time, at least not as an adult. I hope you understand what I'm saying. I have loved before, but I don't think I've loved as I was intended to love.
I'm going to leave you with one of my favorite verses in Matthew 11:28-30 "Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart; and you shall find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy, and My load is light."
I pray today that your yoke is light and that you receive as a child would, the joy that is set before you. Until next time, love each other, Love, Patty
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