put your phone down and communicate with each other

Hello Everyone,

You know I always thought that the way to the soul is through the eyes. Now I know that isn't true. First and foremost, the way to the soul is through The Lord. He will let you know if you're looking for the wrong thing. Secondly, eyes lie. I mean they don't speak words, but they are powerful communicators that can completely disarm whomever those eyes are choosing to target. That is called lust, and lust has already had plenty of my time. Now, I'm on my own financially, taking care of myself with my sisters cars help. I have a neighbor upstairs from me that needs help making appts, being understood after having a stroke and he doesn't have a vehicle either. Plus, I have a platonic friend as a roommate for at least another month, then we'll see if this is still kosher with us both.

I finally got Life Insurance, just enough to put me to rest and approx 7-10 for each of the kids. I don't want them to have to have garage sales and gofundme.com just to have my remains taken care of........that's just too much.

The Lord and I haven't been talking much to each other. I know enough to admit that once again, it's me that's pulled back, NEVER Him. But that's what gets so frustrating, it's always my fault. I have to apologize, I have to make things right, I have to suck it up even though I didn't deserve that. But then, I'm a mother and Grandmother and I want all my kids to be proud of the changes I made, especially over the last 16 years.

So I just want to say, to stand up, put down your phones, all of you, shut off that TV and play a game or cook together, go to the movies, play at the park. Shutting off your phones and looking someone in the eye shows so much more respect than 15 emails.........Just love one another as if tomorrow won't be coming.
In the mean time,  Be Kind;  Be Wise; Be True!!!!   Love you, Patty

So many changes, but I'm the same person

Hello, all you who are faithful even when I'm lost to you for months at a time. I appreciate you all VERY much! Let's catch up.

First, for those who may or may not know, my daughter is about to give birth to her second daughter....I mean like any day, any time. We're very excited as we hope to see both the girls on or around the 20th of this month. Hopefully nothing happens to alter those plans. So please pray for Mary to have Anna as soon as possible and in the healthiest way possible. Thank you.

Also, my son Ben and his wife Alex are just a couple of weeks out of delivering their 3rd son whose name is Connor. We're all looking forward to meeting him. He's going to have to be a strong one and the other 2 boys are very active. They are smart and happy boys. I'm very blessed to get them as often as I want and since they're moving even closer......I should see them ALOT!!

I've also taken on a roommate, not really though. He is family and gets the couch but he's helping me to feel safer and it seems as if the help has been a positive move for everyone involved.

I found a church I like here in Blair. Things were going so great. Then I got to pouring out everything I've ever been through to the Pastor and his wife and I haven't been able to go back. You know when you take honesty and mess up your timeline and make it all sound like it didn't happen over 20 years ago.....I don't know, I thought.....ok, I wasn't thinking. I was very depressed at the time. So everything bad that had ever happened to me came out in about a 15-20 minute talk. I feel stupid. Now I'm nervous to go back, but I have one of their books that was specifically bought due to an interest I had explaining the differences between the Samaritans and the Samarians. It's brand new. What would you do? Suck it up and go to a service and hide among those 20 people? Gosh though, his messages are truly inspired by the Lord. I miss the messages, but my body doesn't want to get up that early and actually be clean and presentable to others. I'm in a conundrum. Maybe I am a conundrum.

Anyway, my back is really screaming at me for sitting this long to type this so I'm stopping now. Feel free to write back, ask question, give me answers to some I asked of you. And until we meet again, Be Wise, Be Kind, Be True.

Patty in Omaha