I AM CHOSEN!!

Hello Everyone,

It's hard to believe that we're nearing the end of October of 2015. Truth be told, I never expected to live this long. I treated myself badly for years. For those of you younger than I....take note. You will pay later for what you put your body through now. Some people just have good genes I guess. I must not be one of them. But, that doesn't have to define who we are today. I know I say that sort of thing a lot these days but it's true. I look back on my younger years and see the choices I made and the stupid things I believed and how I allowed others to treat me. I wish I could talk to her....my younger self. Let her know how many regrets she would have later. Tell her to think more and act less. Be silent, listen, be still.

I feel that way about my family and loved ones too. I see things in my children that I wish I could just download my experiences into their data banks and have them learn by osmosis. We are a lot like computers it's true, but not enough and that is a very good thing. What we failed to know then is what made us who we are now. That my dear is not a mistake. We can't pick and choose our mistakes from the past and most of us wouldn't anyway. We know that if only one of those things didn't occur, it would change everything....everything that we are now. I have to believe that all that I am is for a reason. There is something special about me. There is something in me worth dying for. I am a precious daughter of the Almighty God. I am chosen and elected and adopted as one of HIS. I would be a better use to Him if I remember who I am and where I'm going and what is truly important in this life of ours. A little reminder of this is found in I Thess. 1:4-5a "knowing, brethren beloved by God, His choice of you; for our gospel did not come to you in word only, but also in power and with the Holy Spirit and with full conviction; "

I wish for you all to be blessed and until we meet again remember to Be Wise, Be Kind, Be True, with love, Patty

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Hello Everyone,

I really am trying to be more regular at this but, it's hard. It's hard to know what's appropriate and helpful or what's going to bring others down or cause sorrow. There's been a lot of reminders lately of those people whom I've loved and lost. Family members who have passed on that I miss so entirely. I am frustrated with my lack of life or rather the lack of participation in life. Having chronic illnesses that are not going to get better takes a part in that as well.

Have you had times where you want to get together with family or friends and you don't because you don't want to bring them down? I get tired of hearing myself complain. Others ask how I'm doing and I don't have a positive thing to say unless I'm not honest. What's the point, right? So, I stay home, get bored, talk to my fish, read books, watch the daily paper pile up without being read. I watch hour after hour of Netflix, but even that gets old......trust me.

I really need some ideas for some hobbies. I don't want to sew or crochet or knit....I've already been through the cross-stitch phase. I read, but that's not enough. I sometimes think I'll buy a guitar and learn how to play or buy a drawing pad and see where my thoughts take me in that format. Send me your ideas please.

On a positive note, one of my grandsons spent the night with me last night. We had a great time. It's amazing just watching his vocabulary develop along with his understanding of different things. Truly amazing. The two of us giggled while playing all morning. Don't get me wrong, it is exhausting and I do pay for it physically but it's worth it.

Also, can a fish like an African Cichlid get sick due to boredom or loneliness? If so, what can I do? This particular fish is too aggressive with other fish and has to be separated, but truthfully, she stalks me. She watches every move I make and it makes me feel terrible.

Anyway, I miss hearing from those I care about, but even if you don't know me feel free to drop a comment. I'm still trying out here to find my way. In the meantime, Be Wise, Be Kind, Be True. Patty